Things have been as expected. Hell has been been getting more angry the closer it comes to my leaving this week. She is mad that I made the arrangements to go without talking to her about it first. She has some right in that aspect, but her anger is solely monetary. It has nothing to do with how I feel or what my goal is. Just that I spent money on a flight and will not be around for 4 days. Such an inconvenience.
It is getting closer though. I leave in two nights. I am making a blind trip. I have never been there, don't know anyone, and don't know what to expect. Will I even see the man that provided the sperm for my existence? Maybe. Depends on how he reacts to me being there. For God's sake, the guy is 53 now! Is he still that insecure about an affair he had 30 years ago when he was 23?? Come on. It was eight years ago when I found him. He has had enough time to digest what has been the outcome of his extramarital affair. I don't want anything more than to know what he looks like. A cup of coffee. That's it. I come across three provinces for one cup of coffee. What harm could that cause? I am making all the sacrifices. I have been the only innocent victim in all of this, and of course his wife. His sons were not even born at the time, so their feelings of betrayal are strange to me.
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