Random Thoughts

It's been a few weeks since I have Blogged. It's not that I haven't wanted to, but things have been crazy at home and work. In between the chaos I have moments of reflection that I know I should bog out of me, but I just haven't been able to nail it out.

My outlook on my life has changed since I returned from my trip. I feel that going on that four day journey truly was one of the most important things I have ever done for myself. It was a defining point in my character. Not just because I found and met the man I had always thought of as a myth, and mystery, but because I have no more questions about my life. I am fully aware of where I came from and why I am the way I am. The fact that there is someone who resembles me is an amazing feeling. This may sound silly but I even feel more confident in my own being.

I watched a movie the other night called Big Fish. It was interesting and enjoyable, if not a little sad. I like Tim Burton and his films and this was in my opinion one of his better films. The end made me think of my grandmother who died a couple of years ago. She was the most amazing person, and one of the most giving people I had ever known. She had 13 children and was survived by over 50 grandchildren. The last eight years of her life were hard on her and everyone who loves her. She had suffered a stroke in 1994, and that crippled her. Before that she was always on the go, doing something for someone.

It must have been because I was thinking of her today... But as I walked downtown I saw the usual beggars and homeless. I saw a man in a wheelchair who I had most likely seen before, but today for some reason I felt compelled to do something for him. He had a Styrofoam cup and a cardboard sign saying he was hungry. So I bought him a sandwich. It wasn't much, but I thought that it might help him get through the day. I don't remember that last time I did this, I usually don't even pay attention because there are so many of them on the streets. I just felt like helping.

Thank you grandma. We miss you.