It's been thirteen days since my last blog. There are times I don't even know who I am. I am becoming the father I never knew. Working on making the same mistakes that resulted in years of confusion and pain. What's wrong with me? Why can't I just suck it up and do my time? I only have another 15 years to go. Yet I pursue what I can never truly have. And I put so many lives in jeopardy....think about the children. They have a right to a Father. One mistake...indulgence can change their lives forever. Would they forgive me? It doesn't matter. That's not the point. I made my bed, now I must lie in it. If I had only been wiser, more mature, level headed. But the results of my past have brought me two precious souls. Even if the foolishness of being young has trapped me behind bars, their innocent eyes are worthy of my loyalty. Fantasies must remain that...fantasies.
She calls...I answer...I'm a fool.
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