Quick notes:

- My workouts have been sliding.... this must stop! ONLY 34 DAYS LEFT!!!

- Brain cramping... why can't I let this go? Is it an ego thing? I need to figure this out.

- Last night I went to Yanni... Oh My God! Is it the end of the World?! There is a good explanation for this. Trust me.

F O C U S

I'm losing my focus... I have been having these crazy thoughts... all I can think about is Temptation...

I just haven't been myself lately

Why am I always looking back?

Got A Scare

I got playing around in my Dashboard settings and thought I had accidently lost my entire blog... YIKES! Luckily I recovered from my misstep and my life notes are A.O.K.

In other news...

The day after I left my last blog talking about my grandmother, I lost another one to death. Not a blood relation but close enough. My wife's grandmother passed away lat week, which was very sustaining. Hell was very close to her, almost closer than she is to her own mother. It was a hard week.

... And I have continued to not have any form of communication with Temptation in about three weeks now. Maybe it's done for good this time. It's really hard to say. One minute she's wanting to see me, and the next she stands me up without a word. It don't matter that much though. It's best if things end with us. I really have never known just what she's thinking. And I'm pretty sure she was using me, and I let her. Not because I was being naive, but because I really enjoyed her. Beautiful women will one day be the death of me.